Silencing my Mind

When I say I'm busy, I don't mean my calendar is full. I'm busy taking steady breaths just to stay grounded. Busy quieting the irrational thoughts that won't stop talking. Busy slowing a heart that races for no clear reason. Busy reminding myself, again and again, that the permanent dialogue in my head can be controlled. And more than anything, I'm busy searching for ways how to soothe myself and hold onto hope for others. This is a busyness I never clock out from.